I have been an emotional mess lately in life. The feelings that Matter..

Loving my kids..Loving my Husband..Loving my family...

Those are never an issue....My heart beats steady and true when it comes to that.

Loving Myself however..My entire life has been spent struggling to achieve that.

I feel like the last 6yrs of my life have been a storm...

Raging around me and Devon is my rock my center...

That the storm is trying to tear me away from..

The Kids are my Safe Harbor Surrounding me with love and protecting my heart from completely stopping when the worst hits.

They have gotten me through so much I can't imagine living without them...

But I want to love me as much as I love them.

I want to remember I am worthy of their love and never doubt it.

God gave me these blessings..therefore I must be worthy.

So from now on when I have a bad day and the storm clouds start rolling in I will Remember..

I am Brave-I have made it through so much more then anyone should go through but I did it

I am Blessed- God is my Savior and he blessed me with so much more than I ever thought possible

I am Beautiful- I have parts of me I love and parts of me I don't like so much but there isn't one part of me I hate....inside or out

I am Talented- I know this despite the ups and downs of my career i do not doubt my ability

I am Wise- Because of the bumpy path I have treked I have knowledge beyond my years

I am Strong- Physically I have birthed Five children without pain meds and Emotionally I lost one of the most important people in my life and I made it though it all

I am Determined- Even when I have doubts despite those doubts I am here today even though I have had many rough patches

I am Deserving- I don't just take others for granted, I don't think I am entitled I earn EVERYTING I have

I am Loved- In the Darkest of the light in the deepest of the night there will be light because my Children love me...My Husband loves Me...God Loves me

And in the End Love is all we have

I am many things but I am not now nor have I ever been a quitter...

This is what I will remind myself in the darkest days when the thunder clouds roll in and the lighting is striking close to home...

Every Storm Runs out of Rain...

And in the End there is sunshine and LOVE <3