A Thought about reality...

Reality is...

Life is Hard

People Lie

And Blood Doesn't Make you Family

Thoughts on this due to recent events...

Life is hard but anything worth having is worth working for and if it's not worth having then walk away

It doesn't matter who this person is to you...if you aren't someone to them they will lie and cut you down behind your back..

Blood is a liquid...like Water

Everyone always says blood is thicker then water 

(Meaning family is thicker and stays with you more then friends) 

Here's the problem with that logic..Everyone has blood and it still runs so no matter how thick you think it is...That doesn't mean it will be there when you need it.

I am made out constantly to be the bad guy among the people who were supposed to love me and support me.

I am supposedly the one that ruined the family and they don't see their part in it.

But yet I am supposed to walk back and take the treatment some more because thay are blood.

I don't think that matters anymore.

When complete strangers treat me better then my own so called family it is time to walk away.

If that makes me the bad guy so be it.

But at least I am strong enough to stand tall and proud and accept the consequnces of my actions without shame...to bad others can not say the same.

-My 2cents (I may be broke but I always have 2cents)

At a loss...

I have been an emotional mess lately in life. The feelings that Matter..

Loving my kids..Loving my Husband..Loving my family...

Those are never an issue....My heart beats steady and true when it comes to that.

Loving Myself however..My entire life has been spent struggling to achieve that.

I feel like the last 6yrs of my life have been a storm...

Raging around me and Devon is my rock my center...

That the storm is trying to tear me away from..

The Kids are my Safe Harbor Surrounding me with love and protecting my heart from completely stopping when the worst hits.

They have gotten me through so much I can't imagine living without them...

But I want to love me as much as I love them.

I want to remember I am worthy of their love and never doubt it.

God gave me these blessings..therefore I must be worthy.

So from now on when I have a bad day and the storm clouds start rolling in I will Remember..

I am Brave-I have made it through so much more then anyone should go through but I did it

I am Blessed- God is my Savior and he blessed me with so much more than I ever thought possible

I am Beautiful- I have parts of me I love and parts of me I don't like so much but there isn't one part of me I hate....inside or out

I am Talented- I know this despite the ups and downs of my career i do not doubt my ability

I am Wise- Because of the bumpy path I have treked I have knowledge beyond my years

I am Strong- Physically I have birthed Five children without pain meds and Emotionally I lost one of the most important people in my life and I made it though it all

I am Determined- Even when I have doubts despite those doubts I am here today even though I have had many rough patches

I am Deserving- I don't just take others for granted, I don't think I am entitled I earn EVERYTING I have

I am Loved- In the Darkest of the light in the deepest of the night there will be light because my Children love me...My Husband loves Me...God Loves me

And in the End Love is all we have

I am many things but I am not now nor have I ever been a quitter...

This is what I will remind myself in the darkest days when the thunder clouds roll in and the lighting is striking close to home...

Every Storm Runs out of Rain...

And in the End there is sunshine and LOVE <3

Hey all you out there :) How are all my mommy Friends?

Not sure how I feel about this weather today. Don't get me wrong I LOVE storms I just also prefer to Cuddle hubby on the couch during them and he's at work.

Also I LOVE making my homemade Slow Cooker Turkey Chili unfortuantely I do not have the ingridients at the moment :( however it got me thinking maybe my fellow bloggers out there might enjoy it if they happen to have the ingridients on hand or the money to go get them.

So Here it is :)

My Homemade Slow Cooker Turkey Chili

Ingredients

1lb ground turkey

1/2cup coarsely chopped onion

2 cans diced tomatoes

1 can pinto beans drained

1/2cup of your fav chunky salsa

2teaspoons chili powder

1.5teaspoons cumin

salt and pepper to taste

1/2 cup shredded Cheddar or Monterey Jack cheese

sour cream

In large skillet over medium heat brown turkey and onion drain grease transfer that to Crockpot with tomatoes, beans, salsa, chili powder, and cumin. Stir to blend ingredients cover and cook on low for 5 to 6 hours stirring occasionally and then add salt and pepper to taste serve with a dollop of sour cream and shredded cheese and homemade cornbread

Please Excuse the general picture here I had a picture of my Chili but it got lost when my husband accidently formatted my hard drive instead of the one he was trying to format...Along with a lot of my Pictures :(

Anyways HOPE you enjoy my yummy chili :) <3