When we are young all we want to do is hurry up and grow up. But then when we do and we become parents..
We hope
We Pray
We wish...
For our kids to stay little for awhile longer.. But they don't.. They too must grow.
It's bittersweet really.
Because watching them grow into young respectable little individuals we have raised them to be is pretty amazing. But we also wish they'd just stay little babies for awhile longer.
Eventually we have to give them a little room to spread their wings, let them take steps to be their own person. It starts slow and grows quickly just like they did.
Today I took my first step into letting my daughter spread her wings. My oldest is 8 and today she went to day camp for Girl Scouts from 9am-4:30pm I won't be with her and she's not with her Daddy or another family member. It's scary for both of us. I am a very protective mom and she's never done anything like this before, so it's new for both of us. But we both needed this warm up... Because in ONE MONTH she's doing actual camp...4 days without me...four days away from me...not within a 5minute drive...No she will be 2hours away.. Hopefully she will be having fun and laughing and not missing me. Because she's a kid and that's what kids should do. Have fun at camp and make great memories. But I will be home, filled with worry and missing her like crazy. I know I have to let her spread her wings a little at a time. So she can learn to fly. I am sure she will stumble (and scare me greatly) a time or two in learning to fly. But I also know that in the end she will take to the sky and be strong, independent and beautiful.. Just the way I raised her to be. I have to remind myself that by taking a step back..even just a little one..letting her have some freedom... It's a good parenting choice...Even if it does break my heart a little. Because inside, deep down in the heart of me, where I grew her and loved her as much as my next breath.. I will always need that connection and always pray she stays little. But I will make the choice that is hard for me, because it's right for her.
We are babies and then we grow..
We make babies and they too Must grow.
#circleoflife
