A Voice-
We all have one...or do we?
Are we heard when we speak..
Or do others silence us..
With Threats..
With Fear..
By refusing to listen..
I spoke about a issue today..
I was determined to be heard..
To make a difference..
But I wasn't and I couldn't..
And it kind of broke me a little bit..
I curled up on the couch with my kids.. and cried..
When you have five kids..
Who are all energy balls..
That sit and quietly watch a movie,
You know your emotions must be apparent..
My kids hear me..
Their ears of innocence pick up on the words I couldn't even speak..
Their hearts of pure love, heard my heart of pain..
They heard me and THEY LISTENED..
But so many other's let my voice go unheard..
Unheard on a issue because they didn't realize what it meant to me..
Maybe I didn't either until today..
Maybe I didn't realized how much one moment in my life effected me..
How much it shaped me..
How much it hurt me..
That the person who should have been my voice when I couldn't stand on my own..
When I was young and scared..
Chose to threaten me and lock my voice in fear instead..
Chose my abuser over my clear pain..
And I guess that's why today, when I had a chance to be the VOICE..
For those who are maybe unable to speak for themselves.
I couldn't let it go..it grabbed and engullfed me in need..
A STRONG NEED..
Not a Desire.. Not a hope..
A NEED..
I had to make this heard..
And I couldn't..
Because others though willing to stand up for somthing little..
Wouldn't raise their voices with me..
To stand up for something BIG..
RAPE...
That's right..
I said it..
Rape...
Say it little, say it big, or don't say it at all..
It's still there, it's still real,
And it's horrible...
I thought I could raise awareness..
Maybe by doing so it would start a chain reaction..
And that would lead to education..
On defense... On Counseling.. On warning signs and ways to stay safe...
Anything..
Just ONE little difference..
I just wanted to finally be heard...
Not even for myself..
For I can't change what happened to me..
I know I didn't do anything to deserve it..
I know it wasn't my fault..
But I wanted to be heard..to FINALLY speak..
For MY DAUGHTERS..
When I needed a voice the person that should have been that voice..
Let me down in a big way..
I won't do that to my daughters...
They won't be abused or touched in the way I was..
They won't be hurt and left to grow in fear of telling the truth..
And they won't be left with someone I know shouldn't be alone with them.
They will a voice and until they have their own..
I will be their voice..
I will speak the words others do not want to hear..
I will talk about the hard things others refuse to acknowledge..
For my daughters, for my nieces, for YOUR daughters and nieces..
And for our SONS as well..
Because they need to hear this to..
They need to be as aware..
They need to have a voice..
Our daughters Voices we will raise in Glory..
I will not be left alone should I be victimized..
I will not be quiet should I be hurt..
Our sons voices...
We will defend and protect,
We will know right from wrong and we will stand beside those women as they are heard and support them.
I am ONE voice..
But I will be the voice of many.
And I will be heard..
Even if I am only heard by those I am speaking for..
They will at least know..
Someone will stand for them..
I am Nancy.. Mother of five..
Victim of rape..
And Voice of Many
Do you Hear Me?
